Life as an ADULT

High School...GRADUATED. College....GRADUATE. JOB....A REAL ONE!

There are times that growing up is OVERRATED!

Now, although I love my job, (and hate it too...actually I hate the secretarial part) some days I just wish I could not be so grown up!

.....bills, car taxes, insurance, bills, property tax on the car, bills........(and I still live with my parents!)

I walk through the doors of a school on Monday morning and I'm just as much an adult as any other person in there. I have 20 kids whose world revolves around me 6+ hours a day, who I know in and out and have to be able to give answers for and be accountable for at any moment. I am a teacher, a nurse, a parent (at times), a counselor, a life coach (and I simply wish I could be a Bible teacher to them too). Sometimes I wish I were a kid again (sometimes I feel like a little girl in a grown up world).

There are friends I have that are still in college or have graduated but haven't gotten a fulltime job yet...and sometimes I envy them. They can pick up and go whenever they want...they don't have to worry about 20 kids, 20 kids' parents, other teachers, the principal, assistant principal, the district, state board, national education, or anything like that, depending on them.
Sometimes I wish I were still in college, although there are some things I DON'T miss. I'm glad I don't have to study for the test, I just give the test. But I'm okay with where I am at in life. Sometimes I feel like I am missing out on some friends' lives and I wish I could see them more and spend time with them. Times like these when I've just come back from seeing them is when it hurts the most but I'm also enjoying being with the friends I've been away from for the past 3 years. I just want the days back but, like I said, at the same time I'm ok with where I'm at in life. This was what I was meant to do...just wish I lived closer to the ones that lived so far away (and that I had a secretary--any takers?).

...........the summer will be here soon and 2 weeks for Christmas (now this is also when I wish I were still in college...longer vacations...but hey, atleast I get some!)