Report Cards - Hope their not "The Death of Me" Cards

To give a brief update: There is not too much to tell. My unruly child (who we will refer to as 19 from here on out) returned Tuesday after 2 days of OSS. I was not happy about it but you know...it happens. He has been holding his own since then. We take it moment by moment, day by day, week by week (or atleast I do!). He's doing ok (now when I say ok that means he still has ALOT of work to do but I'm being as patient as possible and he hasn't been as disrespectful as he has been in the past to get himself is OSS)
Tomorrow Report Cards for the first nine weeks go out. AAAHHHHH!!! Let's be honest, I'm scared to death - what if I have a million parents knocking downn my door or asking to have a conference on Nov. 2 - which is the first parent teacher conference day (honestly, I'd rather deal with the children)? We'll see how things go.

Its so hard to believe that I'm one fourth of the way through my first year of teaching...its gone by too incredibly fast. Somedays I wonder if I'm doing any good...only time will tell. I hope more than anything that I am being an effective teacher and that somewhere I make a difference in those little lives...that a worthwhile investment has been made in them, in who they are, not only academically but spiritually. I love those kids with all my heart and want only the best for them. But I know that most days, they sadly, don't get the best of me. But that is going to change, it will be a slow process, but I'm praying for God to help me give the strength to give more to them (though I feel like I've already given all I have).
Thank you to the many, many people who constantly are praying for me. I am so very blessed. Thank you Lord for how you guide me EVER step of the way!